Where does the time go? How is it possible that another holiday is here that I have to spend without you? How is it possible that the time has come, once again, to have to look at your empty seat and be reminded that you aren’t here?
These days never seem to get easier. These days continue to be something that I was once so excited for but am now left with heartache and dread.
These days continue to be a reminder that life will never be the same without you.
I miss the way you would decorate the house. You always made everything look so festive and perfect. You took such pride in making sure everything was perfect.
And Easter was one of your favorites. Don’t think I’ll ever forget that. Actually, it’s basically the only thing I’m left thinking about this time of year.
Who’s supposed to help me pick out the perfect outfit? How am I supposed to know what shoes look the best with the dress I decide to wear?
How am I supposed to continue to do these days without you?
Are they ever going to get easier?
Time continues to pass and all I continue to realize is that I seem to miss you even more than the day before. All I seem to recognize is what a huge void that has been left in my life since you left. This is a void that nobody and nothing will EVER be able to fill.
My heart aches that I have to spend what is supposed to be such an important family-centered day without the most important person to me. I can’t say enough times how much this time of year makes me miss you.
Holidays are a time to spend with the people you love. I just can’t see the sense of it without you here. It takes the happiness and loves out of it that much more.
Life isn’t the same without you. Holidays aren’t the same without you. I’ve accepted, they probably never will be.
Don’t for a second think you aren’t on my mind constantly during this time, just like you are every other day.
I miss you. I love you.
I hope Easter in heaven is as beautiful as you are if that’s even possible.
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