Is it just me or is it that no matter how many years that have gone by since my mom has died, Mother’s Day, is one day that never gets easier?
The weeks (or what seems like months) leading up to it, and the countless advertisements, displays, and card shelves are THE WORST.
I dread this time of year. Everywhere I go it is like there is a giant sign reminding me that my mom died and that she is no longer alive and a reminder that I will have to live today, everyday and all the rest of my Mother’s Day’s without her.
It brings my grief to the center of my mind even when I have been doing well. It brings out emotions I have been able to cope with most of the year. It forces me to grieve and feel, all over again.
It reminds me that Mother’s Day is approaching. Very soon.
There isn’t a day in the year that I dread as much as Mother’s Day. There isn’t any day that makes me dread to get out of bed more and make me want to isolate everyone and everything.
This is a day that nobody in my life can do anything right nor do I want them to. If I can’t have my mom, I want to be alone.
For one day, it feels like nobody understands. It feels like I am the only person in the world without a mom.
So, I have my pity party. I do what I need to do to get through this god-awful day and keep reminding myself that it is one day, and it will be over tomorrow.
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Also, here are some great resources for anyone who has lost a mother
https://www.facebook.com/iamamotherlessdaughter/
https://www.facebook.com/Motherless-Daughters-153858391294874/?fref=ts
Mother’s Day used to be the hardest day of the year for me. My husband asked me a simple question 5 years ago which helped me funnel my grief into something positive. #raok4mom #raok4healing https://www.facebook.com/events/236193413972125/?ti=icl
I’ve discovered if my husband and children make me the “mother of Mothers Day,” it shifts my focus away from the painful loss of my mother. I also take the week before to celebrate her and all that she was and still is to me. I’m 61, and she went to Heaven 44 years ago. It never goes away completely and it never will.
This is me ?, 17 years and counting…. it doesn’t get any easier ?
Natalie
Are there any resources out there for someone who lost their mother when they were a child? Or whose mother was not a "good" mom inflicting severe psychological and emotional abuse? I am depressed on Mother’s Day not because she is gone, but because I missed out on having a loving mother and her having a funny, sensitive kid. Breaks my heart, but that is the life I have. Not looking for sympathy, but rather resources and cooping skills. It has affected me my whole life. Father was not much better..