Today’s feeling: guilt.
I feel guilty. And I’m wondering if I’m the only one.
I wonder if I am the only one who feels guilty for having a tough time throughout this. I feel guilty because I have my health. I feel guilty because I still have an income, and the ability to do my job the best that I can, safely at home.
I feel guilty for complaining. I feel guilty that I am writing about my struggles when I know there are people who have it so much worse. I feel guilty that I am feeling anxious and depressed being stuck at home when I know there are a ton of people who wish they could live in a reality that allowed them to feel safe and content at home. I know there are people who don’t know where their next meal is coming from. I know there are people who are struggling way more than I am. I just feel guilty.
And I know I need to practice what I preach. I constantly tell people in both my job and in my mentoring that you can’t compare yourself to others. I always tell myself that someone always has it worse and people always have it better. I know this. But yet here I am feeling guilty.
So this one is for any of you who are feeling the same. This quarantine has my emotions all over the place. I am sad, I am anxious, I am guilty. But I am also, grateful, content and relaxed. Just continuing to push through and find the silver linings. Hope you can do the same.
Xo,
-C
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